eternalise you.

i promised myself..
that i would not eternalise you..
certainly not within the pages of my notebook..
yet here i am..
finding solace in my only safe haven..
so fate would have it..
that you remain forever etched..
within the covers of my notebook..
even as i write this..
surely you must know..
what is written between these lines..
an infinity of unsent love letters..

to the angels.

i must have dreamt of you last night.
tears staining my pillow.
even in my dreams.
i knew words weren’t created.
to come close to explain missing you.
with your arms around me.
letting go didn’t come easily.
so teach me my love.
how to introduce.
words of longing to my lips.
show me.
how to hold you.
how to let go of you when the time comes.
don’t leave me.
between these rocks.
cutting myself with our memories.
i look around.
regain my senses and remember.
this is not your fault.
i lost you.
to the angels.